mom blogging.

i think i'm really going to start trying to document our day to day lives to remember that although things are totally insane... life is good. and we are lucky. we love our lives. and our boys.

ive come across some awesome mom blogs...and i desperately want to put pictures up along with our stories. so this is my small daily goal. and maybe it will help my writing skills.. because i think i used to be good at it.

owen has been kidnapped by my parents this week. we miss him so dearly- yet it does allow for quality time with the twinkles who by the way turned 3 months yesterday. they are so happy and precious lately. smiling, laughing, squealing... i think i just decided this week that we may in fact survive the year. but up until now it was debatable. and it has definitely taken a village to get us this far. a village of mainly grandparents. and occasionally friends who are willing to put up with our circus. B and i most definitely feel like suddenly we are a traveling circus... but we do adore our circus and always remind ourselves how much.. "long days.. but short years" - thank you Barbara Bush for those words.

i am overtaken with guilt on how much i neglect my dear husband these days. but at the end of most days i truly feel like i have been beaten with a bat and i would pay someone a trillion dollars to just let me get in my bed and close my eyes. the constant entertainment of Owen at 21 months old is a job in itself.. not to mention almost exclusively breastfeeding 2 other human beings intermittently during the day and night. i'm tired just writing that. nursing has become so much more enjoyable just this week... and only when i feed them one at a time. otherwise it is partially miserable. but i'm trying to sort it out. i know it is best for them.. although most people in my life are telling me to give it up. sometimes i want too-- but deep down i mostly don't. they are so sweet. jack is so happy and laid back. parker is such a mama's boy and still loves to be snuggled most all the time. owen has been so sweet to them lately and i think most of his adjusting is now settled... although still has major mommy moments every now and again. just this past week or so his "mama" and "dada" has turned into "mommyyyyy" and "daddyyyy". its so adorable. i love his words. i love his voice. i LOVE him. so much. and miss him when he's away. i know my parents are helping by having him. but he is ours, after all. and we'd like him back. or truly i'd just like to move to new orleans so we can all be together.

in case i forget later... i want to have "movie mondays" on this blog and post weekly videos.
this already seems like more than i will be able to do... but i want tooooo???? hope so.

here's to trying!